8 days past when we were supposed to be home….a very good sign of a kick butt vacation! Keeping with the theme of our procrastinating vacation, the normal 5 hour drive from Page back home took two days! We left, drove about 2 hours and then decided to stay the night in Flagstaff. The next day, we drove about 2 hours and then our car over heated leaving us to check in to another hotel and send Kayla to the doggie spa for the night. No complaints here! I LOVE eating out and staying in hotels. The car trouble was like a gift to me. Especially since the problem only cost around $100 to fix.
We put in our 60 day notice yesterday with the apartment complex. We are hoping to be moved sometime this month! Where? Dunno. We are praying about whether to rent a house or buy. With our company being in the first year of start up, our income doesn’t support the kind of mortgage payment that goes along with the homes we’re used to. This will be our sixth move in six years! Three of those being within the last two years! I love change, I love new phases of life…but this time around I’m a little weary going into it. It’s probably from all the effort being put into our marriage, the dissolving of our ministry and general not-excitement about what kind of house we can afford. And, who wants to hang the same picture for the seventh time just on a different wall? I’ll get over it.
God has always come through. Always. I don’t see how we can afford the type of house that we want to settle down in, so the thought of another temp. fix leaves me feeling ..meh. But God knows what we really need. Maybe permanent housing in Arizona isn’t what He’s after. I’m cool with that. We want to go back East at some point anyways. We just don’t feel like it’s His will to leave our church home right now. I would hate to move and be out of God’s will.
As far as our marriage, I really see us making progress in counseling and day to day run-ins. We still have the nasty fights every once in awhile but something new has appeared…we have normal disagreements too! Yes, I’m totally excited about this. Before, we never had disagreements, only huge fights. That means we’re being changed and are keeping our disagreements from becoming hurtful and nasty. It’s a long road, but we’re doing it!
New home, new marriage, no more part time ministry job…things look very, very nice. If I could only keep from freaking out about how all of that is actually happening. Sometimes the process of getting to what you actually want can look so not like what you want at the time. If you understood that sentence you are a brilliant individual.
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“the process of not getting what you actually want can look so not like what you want at the time.” Actually I think that’s a very insightful comment, but maybe I’m just saying that so you’ll think I’m brilliant:-) Hope is very important and I’m glad God is enabling you to see the path with hope. I’ll be praying that you soon reach the point in this journey where the goal and the path are more visibly alligned. I wanted to let you know that sometimes people come from your website to mine and I really appreciate your putting my link in you pages. However, I’ve changed the address, and I can’t figure out how to redirect it. It’s even worse because the site still looks like it’s there and I can’t change it! Long story, short point is I was hoping you could fix the link to go to the website I’ve included here in this comment.
Not the destination, but the journey. I get it.